Back Again

I still remember the day that the Lord asked me if I would still love Him if I never felt Him again......the question really took me aback and I couldn't immediately answer.....in fact, I spent several days considering that question.....I know that it should have been an immediate response but it wasn't......to bask in His love, to feel so truly one with Him.....to hear His voice in my spirit........could I love Him from afar. After much much consideration, I determined that Yes, I could love Him whether I ever felt Him again or not....and as I told Him that, tears rolled down my face......oh, I didn't want to ever be that far from His heartbeat......maybe I never was.....but I certainly went into the wilderness-----a time of not feeling Him....no matter what....way too long. But of course, a moment is too long. So long in singing to Him, talking with Him but not feeling Him..........and the entire time, still loving Him, Him loving me I know. And then, when I least expected it, in the midst of worship, I felt Him again.....and again, and again........it was soooooo very sweet, and powerful, and incredible......and I am truly grateful...........it feels so good---as if I am alive again....thank you Lord, thanks........